Past, present, and future are all part of time. What would you do if you had a chance to go to any time period, any where, what would you do? Would you fix your mistakes, do you regret what you did? Why would you go to that time period? These are the questions that runs through my mind when I think about going back in time.
I’d made many life mistakes, some big and some small. If I had one chance, I would change many things. I would go back to 8th grade, on the last day before school ended, on the day of a dance. I want to to tell a guy that I liked him, I wanted to ask him to dance with me to a slow song, but I never did. I was too shy, and I regret it. Till this very day, I still think about the mistakes I’ve made in 8th grade, how I could of tried harder on tests, how I’d could of spend my time wisely. Most of all, I want to go back there, when I thought everything was perfect, when I thought everything was right. Now, in high school, I realized that life is way more then just looks, it involves obstacles you have to overcome by yourself. In life, no one helps you but only you.
Another past time I would like to go to a time, when I fell into peer pressure. On that night, my cousins and I were walking home from eating at a fast food restaurant , and we were in a rush to go home. They decided to walk across a busy street. I was unsure of the idea, since I never really like the idea of J-walking. In a blink of an eye they ran for it, leaving me to struggle on deciding to either walking to a close by street light and meet them there, or do what they just did. I was leaning on not doing it, but something went against me and my legs started moving, and I ran for my life. I knew I was hit by a car before I reached the other side, I did remember seeing the sidewalk so close by, but I got hit. My cousins were in shock, almost crying they helped me get up. They asked with constant, “Are you okay?” and pleading me to get help. I knew if I did, I would of gotten in deep trouble with my parents, so I didn’t. The driver was a teen, he didn’t see me, he came out with his friends, urging me to call the ambulance. I remember myself saying, “ I’m fine, I’m okay. It’s fine, I can walk.” When I got home from my cousin s , I broke down to tears telling my dad about it. Every time I do something stupid, he always ends up getting hurt emotionally. If I had a chance I would go back, and would of walked all the way to the light. Till this day, I never J-walk again.
Another regretful memory of mines, is when I was in 7th grade. I would change how I acted around people, how shy and insecure I was. I never really talked, and I could of made so much more friends. I wasn’t the “popular girl” and I knew I could have been known for good reasons, but I didn’t. Sure, I made new friends in 7th, but I felt like I could of made so much more. You ever had a feeling you could’ve tried your best, but you didn’t? That’s what I felt like. Now I’m changed, I’m going to be more friendly, more out-going, and more happy this high school year, and see how many friends I made. So far, that plan is going well. People started talking to me more and more each day. I’m getting closer to new friends, and almost remembering everyone’s name.
I guess life was made for mistakes, so you could learn from them. I know I’d learned from each and every one of my mistake. I am still making more mistakes, but hey, I’m learning right? Life teaches you important lessons, you just need to open your eyes and find what it’s teaching you.
yesssir ! finally finished my essay , took me like 1 hour. Didn’t put that much into it … oh wells, its good. I like this topic.<3
now… on to 5 pages of Algebra 1 honors homework, then i`m done with homework. (:
some how some day i will make your dream of owning a sportcar come true , your dream of becoming a Nasscar racer , your dream of racing , your dream of having a nice big family to have for thanksgiving , you dream of having the best for us , the dream of making me a success , the dream to be rich , to dream to own a big house. i will no matter how poor or rich i am i will make it come true .
Dadddy , stop trying so hard for us , your already doing too much . (:
I love you <3
DANNNNNNG , this should be a Father’s Day thing . (;
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She said that she wanted to get high. He took her to the tallest hill in town. She said that she wanted to stay up all night and drink. He gave her a 12 pack of caffeinated Pepsi and said "drink up." She said that she wanted to shoot herself in the face. He gave her a water gun, put her finger on the trigger, aimed it at her face, and helped her pull the trigger. She said that she wanted to cut herself. He took a Polaroid of her, handed it to her along with scissors, and had her cut it up. She said that she wanted to see her blood. He took her to get her ears pierced. She said that she wanted to cry herself to sleep. He had her watch a sad, romantic movie before bed. She said that she wanted to be alone. He gave her a name tag that said "My name is: Alone." She said that she wanted to have someone there to take care of her, always. He asked when he wasn't.
everytime i get to look up on your face , i feel like my soul is dieing. Everytime i reach with this empty space , i feel like my heart is crying . when we were in love , you told me i was your angel , and you were the one, and now what i suppose to say ? cause you took on forever and ever away .